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    好久好久没听我以前的超级偶像的歌了…今天这首歌突然在我脑海出现… 翻回我的CD找找这首歌… 听了听… 看了歌词… Wu… 好！有点感觉… 对，… 我什么都不是… 但，如果没有感觉，又怎么会… 哈哈… 傻的！好啦，好啦！我承认，我是有感觉啦！但是，就算有都是没用的啦！所以我才不想它啦！都是这种感觉把我弄得… 唉… 嘻嘻，可以改词耶！’就算有的感觉，都是一厢情愿，安慰都显得那么可悲，不愿收拾的感觉让我伤痕累累…’，祝福你… 不过，我偶像的歌都很棒！不然我以前怎么会那么喜欢他咧？而且，可以算是他改变了我，… 要不然，今天我都不会弹吉它了！真的要谢谢你！谢霆锋！我会努力向你看齐！希望以后象你一样，那么厉害，那么有钱，那么帅，那么酷，象你一样买法拉利来驾，我的F430, 象你一样收集多多美美，有型的吉它！说得出，一定要做得到哦！陈德毅！大丈夫一言九鼎！嘻嘻，象你一样摔烂吉它？哈哈…那么有型啊？不要啦，我不要那么浪费啦！不好的，我就不学你啦！哈哈哈… 你也不希望我学你那么坏吧，偶像？？嘻嘻… 这两首歌，真的不错，自己听了有感觉啊！可能是… 不知道！好了… 不想了！不过我学唱这两首歌！可以发泄一下嘛！好过胡思乱想，憋在心里… 唱完出来，舒服多！^_^

我什么都不是（谢霆锋）

＊我什么都不是　我是二等兵士　因国捐躯都难　记于正史
　我是九等天使　我做什么天都懒知
　我什么都不是　带着自己心事　想告解只可请教牧师
　然后便答我　你们再苦也如玩意

你的身分比我高　愿我的资质比你低
宁愿我是只白蚁　木屑中开心的吃亏
你的恋爱比我伤　我只像微尘就算伤口也很细
多么好　缩小了的我　让痛苦都会很细

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这么宽广的世界亿个万个也在捱　请不必将你我突然放大
我这么小小都苦恼不配被了解　假使想轻松过我的生涯
难免要让自我缩细在拼命去踩

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－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－

如果没有感觉 （谢霆锋）

一副不知名的罪 交杂着对错和是非
昨天谁对不起谁 明天谁又为谁憔悴
努力忘了他的脸
自己还带着脱不下来的尾戒
爱 不一定真切
再见却已难实现

*如果没有感觉 墨镜何必遮掩
这要命的依恋 还不肯退
坚持一点感觉 竟然也会如此狼狈
如果没有感觉 哪来眼角的泪
安慰都显得那么可悲
不愿收拾的感觉 让我伤痕累累

当初发了疯的追 如今反而拼命的退
看着他为爱受累
多么痛谁可以体会
脱口而出的再见
以为能让他潇洒滴转身而退
爱 若不肯完结 还要我赔上一切

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自以为的慈悲 敖不敖得过不甘愿
有一种美 原来充满危险
错在我爱的强烈 成打不开的结
太过重于直觉对不对
爱情本来不可以让我为所欲为

    哦，好久没用华文写部落格了… 上几次都是广东，英文的… 偶尔换一下这个，换换那个，还蛮有趣的！如果以后我再学好了日文，写写日文也不错哦！哈哈… 希望啦！现在才会那几句… 今天… 是我们大石非常创作班的验收考试日。今天自问，也做得不好，而且，老实说，也准备不够啊！没有200％的准备… 其实，今天也学了很多东西，老师们也说得非常有道理，非常专业，服得五体头地！Actually, I know what’s going on with me! What’s the problem that I have… But just… Why? I can’t make it! What’s wrong? How can I overcome this? I’ll have to figure it out A.S.A.P!!! Or else, I’m gonna stay here forever! No, I don’t want!!! You know, teacher said that we must work hard three times more! And actually, this time… Honestly, I didn’t even work properly! Not even close!!! Shoot… What am I doing?? Damn it… I know, I know… Patience, Endurance, Efficiency, Discipline, Concentration,… These are all the things that I don’t have!! I should know what I’m gonna do…

    哦，怎么又突然用英文了？唉，总是这样，… 真的好难克服！很难做，我在想，我到底几时才可以做到？我真的不希望我后悔的时候才醒，才发现太迟了！我真的很想做到！陈德毅！你知道为什么你妈妈在你上中学的时候帮你改了’毅’吗？而且这个’毅’，相信妈妈是选了几个’yi4′字，再从中问问神，拜拜，选选，才选到这个’毅’字！因为，我没有这样东西啊！！！！！毅力！！你以为你还是以前的’陈德易’？？？ 全都很容易吗？？？’易’十年前已经没有了！我已经不是’陈德易’了！我现在是’陈德毅’耶！陈德毅，你做了多少年陈德’毅’？？十年了！！怎么一点点的毅力都体会不了？学不到？怎么浪费妈妈，还有神的心血？这个世界不是常常都如意，容易的！是的，有奇迹，有运气！可是，奇迹是很珍贵的，不是常常会出现！运气，不是每次都很好很好的！都会有不好的时候！但是，平常的时候，你应该知道怎么做吧？你知道，运气，机会，奇迹，都一样，给有准备的人啊！就好象，你现在给我一把Saxophone, 要我表演，表演一场有一万零吉！哇！好啊！一万耶！没用啊！我会吹吗？吹牛就可以！我根本就不会啊！但是如果同样条件，我身边有个人是Sax. player，这就是他的运气，他的机会！我身边，其实是很多很多机会的！可惜，我… I’m not ready, yet! Yes, you know, but you’re not good! Good is even not enough! You are not outstanding, not special, not amazing! 说服力不够！Level not there yet! 你明吗？喂… 快点啦！我不知道我现在到底是… 不过相信都是借口吧？别再自己骗自己了，好吗？我根本就什么都不会，什么都做得不好！什么原因？？你自己懂啦！！不用我多说！记得你自己的名字，’陈德毅’… 想想你妈妈，想想自己到底衰在哪里！

    希望，我真的会醒，会进步吧！更何况我那么贪心，什么都想学！好了… 不过，我还蛮满意我的创作，”I’ll Never Give It Up”啦！只是我表现不好吧！Verse改过了，其实好一点！我第一次改歌耶！第一首我自己满意的英文歌耶！算是这样啦！当然下次写的要好过这个两倍，至少！一首要好过一首！现在，我最大的心愿就是快点把我人生的第一首歌卖出去！听好哦，不是一首，是’第一首’！有了第一首才会有下一首，下一首，下一首…到千千万万首！先别想那么长远！别想要做创作歌手！Eh, 小朋友！连创作都做不好，唱歌都唱不好，做歌手？？开玩笑！一样一样来啦！！你有没有看过小朋友不会爬，但是会跑的？？还有，做好你学院的东西，学你该学的，练你的吉它！！！！！认真点！你多久没有练吉它了？你讲！！！我是说认真的练，不是玩玩下！还有，从现在开始要当作是从零开始！你懂吗？？要不然，你不会去做的！就当做自己什么都不会！一切从零开始吧！快快毕业，想想怎么赚钱，怎么找多几个学生来教，怎样找些Gig来打！Screw it up!! Who cares?? Now you didn’t even start, how to go to the end?? I’m sure in the middle you will screw up, or not enough stamina, make mistake, what ever… but, START! Come on! 还有！！别再想那个了！！我知道，你很希望，很渴望，… 巨蟹座的，很正常！可是，这个时候应该不是想那个的时候吧！！更何况，你有能力吗？你自己都搞不定你自己，都那么多东西要烦，要顾，要做… 而且，你有时间吗？？？别不知量力了！！还不是时候，not even close, ok?? 而且，你不是笨到不知道人家的意思吧？？你知道为什么人家每次都是这样吗？？就是不想多说，不想给你有什么不该有的想法，误会，whatever！总之，就是… 不是咯！’Cuz, you know what? You are 癞蛤蟆 now！！你不要再做这种无聊的事，想这无聊的事了！现在，… No! 等到你有能力才说吧！小朋友，以后的事，以后才说吧！T.T 现在，做What I suppose to do, now! Ok? Capish??

    好了！写了那么久，该停了！实际行动该开始咯！今天快去冲个凉，早点休息！’Sip 高个枕头念清楚’！明日新的开始！从零开始！算对你优待咯！快点准备Arranging 3 Final Project, 虽然上星期交了Mid Term Project, 但是，老师还没听，还没present… 其实听了那么多同学的，我不太想Present! 而且很有压力！很烂耶！你不想Fail Arranging 3的话，跟我做好Final Project, 快点完成！就轻松点咯!然后专注在……你知道啦！Ok? Cool?? 嘻嘻！我会好好加油！

哈哈… 提一提… 我的新超级偶像，这次是美国的哦！Jason Mraz!!! 最近都比较常听他的歌，还有一些英文歌… Jason Mraz, 真的超劲！！！刚刚买了他的第二张专辑！我是特地买的哦！因为我想支持他！虽然都有了他的一些歌，…但是，我一样会买！因为他真的吸引到我买！而且，我的其中一个嗜好是收集啊！CD, DVD, VCD是其中一样我的Collection Item! 如果迟点有多点钱，我连第一张，和最新的第三张我都会买！！嘻嘻！希望能有朝一日，我能象他一样！！哈哈，我的嗜好都是贵到死的！所以咯，不努力怎么行啊？还说要象以前的偶像谢霆锋那样收集吉它？？要更努力才行啊！知道吗？？ ^_^

    嗯。。。我老婆出院啦！仲好健康！算我好采。。。都算你地好采！哼！今次我就算啦！唉，老豆都讲得岩既！好有道理！无谓伤到自己，自己辛苦！我就无甘无聊再嬲，再念。。。既然老婆无事，更加唔应该嬲！但系有D人我依然会唔系几妥既！不过，我采你都唔得闲！超。。。老婆，我以后就唔会卑你甘牺牲，出埋D甘唔专业，甘细既场面！！起码你系我学院出场都无甘唔底！！虽然学院场面唔大，但系起码够专业！除左D超大场面，同专业场面之外，老婆都系多D系屋企休息，陪我，好无？^_^ D细场面，’D人’接返来既，就卑你其余既姊妹去做啦！^_^ 好啦！我都应该去做我D野啦！Arranging下星期交啊！快D啦，做得个少少！下星期既创作，唱Demo考试加油啦！喂，快D写好你首歌啦！仲要练架！问你死未？仲赖赖闲。。。 同我搞到好好睇睇啊！！

寻晚就表演啦，其实我唔知点解既！甘大牺牲做乜喔？’人地’都唔会多谢你既，呢D甘既人？？你仲指意拒多谢你？睇都唔睇下你！我就根本唔知点解拒会系度做晒指挥？？你无料就唔好学人扮晒大野！！扑X啊！又现实，又大小超，根本对音乐一巧不通！She knows shit! But why is she here? Damn it!! 仲成日摆卖晒D款，仲成日黑口黑面，X屎X样！X家产。。。你凭乜野？呢个世界真系有时唔知搞乜既！表乜野演？我宁愿表演卑D识欣赏既人睇，同埋识得珍惜人，珍惜Instruments既人睇都无甘嬲！仲有啊！我把吉它搞成甘，间接性都系’你’害架！’人地’！！！我把吉它买左甘耐，我撞都无撞过，敲都无敲过啊！顶你个肺，寻晚边条X街X家产整跌我吉它，我从今日开始诅咒你全家，同你势不两立！！鬼唔望你以后，想要乜野，得唔到乜野！有乜野都卑人整鬼坏晒！岂有此理！整跌左无相干，你都唔好无公德心到甘啦！唔识放返去啊？仲由得我把吉它继续倒系地上卑人踩啊？你无手架？残废啊？你阿妈无教架？我真系唔明点解呢个世界甘多呢D甘既衰人，无公德心既人，同埋D败类！！呢个世界，真系要找个好人，真系唔容易！因为D好人一尾卑人虾！仲有边个要做好人喔？好人都变晒坏人啦！一人做事一人当啦，整跌左放返去我都无甘嬲！仲有你啊！间接性害到我把吉它整伤既人！！我都同你势不两立架！你最好求神拜佛唔好卑我有机会，我一有机会我就要你双倍奉还，整到你无好日子过。我放长双眼睇下你威得几耐，睇下你几时折堕！！！睇下我力量强过你，命硬过你，抑或你风光得耐！我系甘架，你整到我我可以唔理，但系你唔好搞我屋企，唔好搞我家人，唔好搞我最爱既野，最爱既人，凡系整亲拒地其中一样，我唔会就甘算！我有能力既话，我仲唔会卑你好过！多谢K。K。帮左我！同卖寻晚同我倾MSN既人，我好开心第一次同你倾甘耐！多谢你听我讲两句，但系唔好怪我甘客气喔！希望当日我无左到你啦！

哎哟。。。我老婆啊！！死啦而家，调极都调唔准啦！我寻晚又弹断线，。。。’人地’仲唔卑我走，我只系要去快D整我把吉它姐！你又唔卑我走，你又废到乜野都做唔到，帮又帮唔到手啦！你识乜？？？结果咪要我出去整！系唔系晒我时间既？仲有，我而家贪你包吉它弦啊？？RM11.00，甘Cheap, 惊死我拿你架？我本来打算同你买架，如果无办法！但系你讲个句，’你可唔可以拿个条Spare架？呢D我要卖！’，妈X，你乜野意思哦？？RM11, 我卑唔起啊？Di… 我去Guitar Store换加弦都六七十蚊好无？？死产啊，越讲越滚！我唔想再提呢个人！我相信已经好多人都唔中意你左，包括你既自己人！你都唔反省下！

就算无钱我都唔会无骨气！而家，我手上现金就快用晒啦！我真系唔够钱啦！我吉它又伤成甘！要Set返，夹卖check都唔少钱添架！我真系唔想再用卡左！就爆架啦！天啊，可怜下我唔够钱洗啦！仲搞甘大单野。。。可唔可以，卑多几个学生我，或者卑Gig我打, 卑我卖到歌。。。起码卑我有收入，我又唔系望个天跌D钱咯来，唔过分啊！帮帮忙啦。。。安排一下！！我仲要开饭架！！！如果唔系。。。我食屎架啦！！！哈哈哈哈哈哈。。。但系我好命硬既，放心！！天无绝人之路！我唔会认输！

   Oh… NO!!!!! Not again… That was my 1st thought in my mind when I woke up this morning… Normally, when people has a sweet and nice dream will feel happy right? Yes, it is happy, but not the moment we awake… I had a sweet and nice dream, I felt so in love and happy… I had her in my dream… It was so great,… Really feel that happiness and ‘Xing Fu’… And that’s the person and the kind of relationship I dream of… But when I awake, I feel… ‘Oh, NO!!!!! Not again…’ And feel like crying le… So big contrast of now the reality and dream… Hmm… The previous time I dream about her, at 29th of August 2008, I’ve written a song… Today, it was also kind of special, because I remember that I dream about her and a melody, something like a melody that I’ve written and stored in my music library, but slightly different. Unfortunately, I don’t remember what’s the difference, or else it would be a special and nicer song. Nevermind, then I decided to write a song, pick the melody that I’ve mentioned, in my music library, and change, write the verse… There you go, another song’s done… Then I’ve also filled in the lyrics… Here, I’d like to share to all of you… The title of the song <<八月十五的梦里>>,

《八月十五的梦里》

曲：陈德毅 (14^th September 2008) 农历八月十五

词：陈德毅 (14^th September 2008)

八月十五的梦里我看见了你，我们终于在一起多幸福甜蜜，

没有距离，我和你象一对小夫妻。

我们牵着手走在一起，陪你看烟火和流星雨。

Oh~ 我已经满足又开心。

八月十五的梦里你要我抱紧，凝望着你我心里是多么甜蜜，

不见了你，象疯子，我是多么焦急。

我们相拥在冰冷空气，哄你睡我唱歌给你听。

Oh~ 你都愿意，听我说爱你。

Oh, why? 我多么不愿从梦里醒来。

醒来，我心里多难受想哭个痛快。

就算再难捱我还等待。

就算别人笑我愚蠢也不愿放弃爱。

相爱，我想和你有甜蜜的未来。

期待，现实会变成梦一样精彩。

缘分和命运能否变改。

也许不可能我也(一厢)心甘情愿的等待，你会接收我的爱。

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Maybe it’s not the way it suppose to be now… But… I don’t know… For now… Leave it as it is… Kind of great… Always give me inspiration… Especially dreaming… But I’m still not really satisfy with my song writing yet… I want more,… As like what I expect in my life… Anyway, looking forward to finish this song… And… Shall I send to her?? But I’ll definately send to ‘Zhi Zhong’ lao shi to give me comments and correct me in order to do better and better in my song writing… Really learn a lot from him! ^_^ That’s about it today… Erm… Reality… Dream… Which is the true thing?? Will dream ever come to reality… I mean the dream that really in our dream… Sometimes people see exactly what they dream, maybe after a long time, they saw it and feel so familiar and forgot that they have dreamt that scene before… Is it true? I wonder………………………..

    Brand new day, brand new month, brand new semester, and brand new Tommy. Hehe, yeah… Finally it’s over and it’s begin… Haha… Bad things, unhappy things, crazy semester and busy things,… OVER! And the new things, great things, happy things, HAS BEGUN! Yeah, yesterday was first day class, back to college to attend Juan’s Arranging 3 class! I think besides this class, no other class will have more work than this… So, I suppose to concentrate more on this Arranging 3 class, one thing is, it is Juan’s class, there’s so many things that we can learn from Juan, really need to appreciate this opportunity. Second, I’m so into arranging and interested to it so much! And I hope I can be a great arranger one day! Third, Juan is very strict, I’m suppose concentrate and do work in his class, so… No more stupid reasons like too busy or no time to do… Capish? Concentrate and take it seriously! Besides Arranging, I need to write and write and write songs… And practice MORE guitar!!! This is important! Grad is coming… And, oh ya… Shoot… Recital’s coming… I’m still struggling whether am I able to play ‘Tender Surrender’ by Steve Vai? This guy really crazy… This song is so damn hard to play… Can I at least get all the notes by this week? Otherwise, how to play? Erm… Then this semester, as usual I need to work more on Ms. Ashley’s vocal class, and my lovely Hui Ling teacher’s vocal class stuff… Then Ms. Junie’s Piano class stuff. That most about it, right? Erm, work on what I suppose also, Ear Training, (this can never stop), and revise HAMM, Arranging 1 and 2, listen to more music, especially guitar, and jazz, fusion, latin stuff!!! 1^st the music that I suppose to listen for my college and for contemp, 2^nd , commercial music that I need to know, then read more books and work on my English and Japanese language, ya?… Erm… Seems a lot of stuff! Anyway… Takeshikun, Gambateh kudasai! Anatawa tenzai desu! ^_^

    Hehe…and remember… Feel good… You know, when I see my Bao bei miao, Mr. M, Money Zai, I’ll feel very happy, and smile… Feel good… Everytime! Although he’s totally naughty, always bite me, scratch me (but actually, he’s just playing… but too rough), until I bleed and my right hand still have 3 scars… Naughty boy!! But, I don’t mind… As long as I see him, I’m happy,… He’s still so cute and healthy, that’s enough! Sometimes hug him, kiss him, play with him… Hehe… Erm… And recently I find that when I’ll feel happy when I see my Goddess… Not that kind la… She’s someone I admire and like… Erika Toda, ^_^ Oh, my god… She’s really cute and adorable and pretty! Death Note’s Misa-Misa… Remember? But she’s not those ‘Pretty’ girl, I’ll call it ‘Rose’! She’s sweet, and cute type of pretty! And seriously, I don’t like ‘Pretty’ girls! I only like sweet and cute type of pretty girls! Because ‘Pretty’ girls are all ‘Roses’… Will fade one day! I hate Roses… Roses, GET AWAY FROM ME!! Just like JJ and Rynn’s duet song ‘Rose’… I love that song so much! Guys who hate roses… Please check the song out! Yeah, so happy that I can find all her wallpaper online, everyday change one of her wallpaper,… Look at her and I’ll be happy! ^_^ Hehe… I’m not Bian Tai la… Maybe because she’s really really cute, and is 200% ‘My Type’!! Yeah… Erika Toda, anatawa tottemo kawaii desune! ^_^ Erm… Next… What else can I do to feel good… Yeah, watch funny things, movie, video clips, talk show, whatever. Yeah, Chi Wah’s talk show, I love it so much! Wonderful, and his acting also,… Funny and nice! Like him! What else… There are so so so many things that can make me feel good… So,… why unhappy? Why moody? Right? I’ve already changing a lot, compare to last time! Although I always looks like don’t talk, too cool, doesn’t mean I’m not happy… Not feeling good, you know… I’m just thinking how to be better the next second… I’m those thinking type, not talking type… Hehe… I think a lot… Everything… I’ll think of…

    The next second will be better… I believe… Hehe… hope too see myself soon in this blog… But, sometimes I’m lazy to write… And every time I write will be very long… So, don’t know when I’ll write again… No big deal… I write to remind myself and to encourage myself and to upgrade myself… Not to tell story… Hehe… ^_^ Bye!